JUST SOME OF THE FEARS
Among that initial list of fears were, in no particular order: fear of image reviews, fear of 1:1 mentoring, fear of technical aspects of photography, fear of learning about new gear like filters and flash, fear of travelling, and the best (really worst) one: fear of not measuring up to others. Do not, I mean DO NOT draw your sense of worth or goodness, skill or talent from social media. For that matter, remember what “opinions” are like … Like me, love me, don’t like me … I’m just sharing my work, work that means something to me. Please do the same.
These fears made me curious, so I reached out further to a special group of photographers online, asked for and received even more input. My question was, “As an artist, what are you afraid of?” Some of the responses went deeper and included feeling like one cannot do full justice to the art and life obligations and a desire to pursue the art without pressure to make it a job. There was another just wanting one’s art to be understood, fear of not being creative or artistic enough, fear of letting go of perfect (oh, please do!) and of not being “good enough” (in whose eyes?). There was more: fear of a lack of acceptance of the work as artistic, of technical competence or artistic merit. Even more … fear of exposing deep life secrets, imperfections and the need for help. I heard of the fear of being boring and wondering what one was doing with art and photography.
The last one resonated with me on several levels. It talked about the fear of running out of time to chase the dreams due to health issues, fear of choosing without regrets and fear that the “muse” will have left, not to return in time. I remember that. And, then, there’s that small voice that whispers (then yells, if we let it), “not good enough.” Is there an echo? Who among us has not heard or thought some of these thoughts and fears, regardless of the medium, the art or any other vocation?